hey everyone,

time for yet another monthly news post. this time, this post is something that i wish i didn’t have to post, but due to my busy and fast paced personal life, and the circumstances surrounding my current mental health, i have to speak up.

firstly, i have been battling with my depression and bipolar for the past three to four weeks or so. my chronic illness hasn’t been doing me any favours either. things have been incredibly difficult to balance when it comes to making content, focusing on our eventual move across the country, and trying to keep up with friends online. it’s pretty overwhelming at the moment, and it has all piled up, and up. i still managed to bring out three projects this month despite this, but i am now just very tired, mentally and physically. next month’s content will have very possible delays on release, and my Twitter will be semi dark from time to time due to being just simply too socially tired and busy offline. commissions after the current one i am doing will be closed temporarily.

secondly, seasonal depression has started to rear its ugly head. (even though i am so damn glad that the summer has gone!) and it has hit me with a harder force than anticipated. i relapsed on self harm twice after two incredibly large breakdowns, and it’s something i am seriously not proud of after being clean from that for 5 years. i often don’t like to talk about these things online because i tend to keep things extremely private, but i felt that i had to say something because being silent about things like this can be dangerous. i have had traumatic experiences that i’d rather not repeat on the internet, but the lessons i kept from them is to not be quiet about your pain anymore.

third, to add up to the bricks on my back and the knives in my chest, i got news that my closest aunt who was like a mother to me through a time where i didn’t have one to turn to, has been diagnosed with terminal COPD, and has already gone into respiratory and cardiac failure a few times… I don’t have very long to spend with her, and I cannot afford to fly over and at least give her one last hug and goodbye. this doesn’t help at all. and i am trying to process the whole thought of even losing this incredible woman at some point, letalone the idea of her suffering and finding it hard to breathe every single day… i almost screamed when i heard the news, and i have yet to break from it. i am just numb and heartbroken right now, and haven’t yet stepped out of the denial stage of grief. thank god i have the strength of a fucking lion.

because of how much this has hit me, and because i want to try and make a difference for my incredible momaunt, a small chunk of my profits i get from either donations or commissions, will go to a charity associated with supporting and caring for those with terminal illnesses, and towards hospital palliative care charities that are reputable and outstanding in their efforts to keep those we love who are dying, comfortable until the end. please suggest some charities that deserve this support down below if you wish, and i will definitely look into it.

for now whilst i am trying to recover myself, you can always check out my recent projects here , here , and here.

thank you all for reading this far down, and i hope your start to the fall has been alot better off.

with love, Glow.